"Today doesn't mark the end of one year in Creator’s Circle. It marks the end of three years in Creator’s Circle and I've grown the most in this last circle.
You’ve all helped me to fully own who I am. There are two things that I've been trying to hide, but have been in plain sight pretty much all my life.
Firstly, I’m British-born Chinese. I didn’t like to draw too much attention to my ethnicity or bicultural background in my earlier life. It's a big part of me that I am bringing out in the world and has been a key part of my creating this year. Owning and outwardly speaking about my Chinese roots, connecting with the East/South East Asian community in the UK and empowering ESEA leaders with my coaching work.
Secondly, I have Type 1 Diabetes. I used to be embarrassed about injecting insulin in public. Now, I proudly speak out about my condition and why insulin is a lifeline. I’m using my position as a privileged person who has access to free medical care in the UK to campaign, advocate and help others who don't have the same privilege as me. The Creating Perspective taught me to see and create myself as that person. I created the confidence to walk 50km for a diabetes charity and raise £1500 in the process.
From here, I'm building social change. I have momentum now and it's because I've found my voice and I’m no longer afraid to use it.
The Creating Perspective has also taught me the power of self-creation through declarations. Two declarations, in particular, stand out for me:
I am innocent and response-able.
I am forgiving and free.
These two declarations alone have allowed me to access deep self-love. They are my access points to keep loving myself and let go of judgments.
I want to say thank you to every one of you. This has been the greatest circle because it's also been the most challenging circle. In previous circles, I held back a little because I wasn't as all in. I feel like I've been through it all in this circle. I've been all in, I’ve wanted to leave, I've seen parts of me that I didn't like, I've seen parts of me that I do like... through each of you. Creator’s Circle is an eye-opening hall of mirrors and you’ve each played a part in helping me to grow and see who I am.
I was initially drawn to the Creating Perspective because I wanted to express my ideas freely and outwardly. I wanted to draw out more of my personal power but I didn’t understand what power actually meant. People would often say to me, “you’re a powerful woman”, which I rejected because I didn’t see myself that way.
Before the Creating Perspective, I thought that “powerful” meant control, oppression and exerting power over others, which is the opposite of what I stand for. No wonder I batted it away! I used to think that the way to access power was through being punished or criticised. Creator’s Circle has been anything but that. Whenever I thought I needed a metaphorical clip around the ear, I found out that it wasn’t. It was more love, not criticism, and that has been healing.
The Creating Perspective has transformed my relationship with power. I now relate to “power” as “capacity to create any outcome I desire”, and so “powerful” means “filled with capacity to create”. The source of that capacity to create is love. Loving myself. Loving others. Loving all that is.
You are a champion for our highest potential and you powerfully speak our being into existence. Your commitment to your self-creating practice has had a ripple effect on me. I include declarations in my morning practice, not because I have to but because I want to. Because I’ve reaped the benefits of speaking my word into existence for myself. I've had the privilege of being in your orbit for all this time to inculcate Creating into my heart, body and mind. My words truly create my world. Thank you for showing me the way."